| Oh we have nothing left but what we have and only have what we want to give.
Look at me cause I'm stunned. Turned to thoughtlessness.
Always in motion but never sure of our direction. Stear me right, stear me wrong. We get what is coming to us. Let the children see our folly. Let them jugde our bones.
Hold me up. Hold me up.
I bet you twenty they won't Last!
I'm ready for new things. I'm also ready to return to things I shouldn't have ever left. Jesus, I can't do anything without you. Please help me to do what is good and right. Thank you for everything. And forgive me for my sins. I love you and need you. |
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you try to remember. you try to forget.
i'm a wretch.
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Don't let your dreamers grow up to be dead men.
I feel numb right now.
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| maybe this is the gust of wind that brings down this house of cards.
she races across a midnight sky
a trail of brilliant golden embers follow close behind
and yet the same sparks linger, showing where shes been
she travels Beautifully
she is bold
she is deliberate
Beautiful is everything
she is everything
hemlock
autumn dusk
hemlock
autumn dusk
pander to the breeze
leaves that steal your focus
crisp and new
i had a bunch of words/poem ideas in my head at work today. needed to get them down before they left me. i have more but i hate the way the one is worded because to the reader is sounds so different then what it means to me, so i don't know how to fix that. not that i feel i need to fix my own words. cause when it comes to poems or any art for that matter i don't think one should be apologetic. but thats just me.
i really want to film something again. i'm just so busy. maybe after the weekend.
just looking back at very old xanga posts. dang, i was and odd kid. haha a lot has changed and yet its neat to read my old thoughts.
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| i'll be an uncle any day now. dang thats crazy!
makes me feel old that my sister is having her first child. but thats life. its exciting.
as of yesterday i will be starting school again in November. that also is pretty wild since i haven't had any sort of class since 2005 when i went to Penn State Berks. i'm pretty stoked about starting school again and the program i'm enrolled in at BTI looks to prove interesting and challenging. the only rough thing is that more than likely i'll have to leave my job in york since i doubt they will be willing to work around my school schedule. in some ways i'm happy i wont have to make that long annoying drive down there but really i don't want to be without a job right now. its really hard to find work. i'm really praying that God will help me find a job that's going to work with everything that i have going on right now. but at least i'm moving in the right direction, finally ha.
i miss music. a lot sometimes. but i know that i need to do what i'm doing right now.
Jesus is so amazing and i really need more of him in my life.
.but there must be a place for a wretch like me.
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